Day by day, I found my confidence is not really strong, and continues to reduce. Why I stay in ShangHai? And when I stay in ShangHai how I should do can create happy life? So much time I have wasted, and little improve I have made. I feel my dream is far from me, the most important things is my dream seems not a big goal worth fighting for. Microsoft, a great company, join it is my dream when I stay in ShangHai. If I do not fighting for this, I do not know why I should stay here, here I have too much pressure. E.g. I should keep study everyday, learn english, learn new technology, and should meet new task from work everyday. At the end of last year, I made a wrong decision that jump to a small company. Although in here I can do my interested things which is develop mobile app, but I find that is easy to do it, and this kind of work exprience will not get very high pay for. The worst things is that boss not pay attention to windows phone platform. So the position of our team is very low. When develop a new requirements, we always is  the last one to receive the resource. How can I do? I want to change it!